I think we're also thrilled to see this first trimester winding down. I'm not gonna lie. There are days when it has felt difficult to be alive. When I was pregnant with Cara, I don't think I had any symptoms. I keep asking PJ if he remembers me being particularly tired or cranky or nauseous, and he swears he doesn't remember any of that. (Good man.) I don't remember even feeling pregnant until the baby belly arrived. However, this go around, I feel pregnant. The nausea and exhaustion have been pretty intense, although I'm starting to feel a little more like myself again.
This biggest difference has been how quickly my body has changed. Everything remembered what to do. I swear my uterus went ahead and pushed itself forward a bit and all my other internal organs shifted to their preggo positions. And don't get me started on the girls...they definitely remember nursing.
At first, I was pretty certain that I would be able to keep this one a secret until 12 weeks or so, but when I went back to work, people noticed. I guess I could have played it off, oh, it's just one too many Blue Moons this summer, but maybe I was a little excited. And that's okay. Babies are exciting!
There are so many questions hanging around, like where are we going to put this baby? or how are we going to pay for daycare for two? or when are we going to sleep again?? but I know that God will take care of us. We had even more questions and concerns before Cara was born, and God arranged things in His perfect way. That doesn't mean everything is or will be easy, but it does mean that He will provide the answers we need in His timing. It feels good to let it all rest right there.