Apr 21, 2013

perspective

Sometimes being a working mom is like trying to do two things at once and be two places at once.  

Sometimes being a working mom is like trying to drive a train from an airplane.

Sometimes being a working mom is like juggling and hula hooping at the same time.

To be honest, there is nothing that can accurately describe the frustration of trying to do two very, very important things really, really well.  I wish I was a person who was okay with just doing okay, but I'm not.  I want to be the best at whatever I'm doing, or at least I want to be better than I was yesterday.  Or last week.  Or last year.  All this to say, lately, it's been tough to find the balance between work and home.

Balance is probably always going to elude me because the pendulum is always swinging, usually in the opposite direction of where I want it.  There are times when I simply must put more energy and time into my one hundred and twelve students.  A grading period is about to end or a stack of essays was just turned in.  A new unit of study is about to begin.  Or all of these things are happening at the same time right now.

However, I know that when I throw myself into my work too hard, I get angry and resentful.  Why should I focus so much on other people's children?  What about my own?  What about my husband?  What about the piles of laundry and the layers of dust?  I should be able to just do what I have to do.  I mean, the school year has ended for me eight times, and I have always met my deadlines.  Why should I think this year will be different?

I have decided that this year will, in fact, be different.  Everything will get done at work even if I don't stay until after 5.  Because there are two sweet babies who really want to come home and play in the yard for a bit before dinner.  And I want to make that happen for them.  And for me.

Apr 14, 2013

a lazy sunday

We had one of those really busy Saturdays, the ones where you run around and clean and play and chaperon prom (oh yes, we did).  It was fun, but we were tired.  So, we took Sunday off from the world as a day of rest and fun at home.

















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